Just when I thought I was through

...this morning I was feeling scared. Rent and other bills are due this week and I feel like I have exhausted all options to come up with the $ to pay. As I set up for my yard sale, in hopes keeping the fires burning to run the company and "save myself" (from the fears I have about being evicted) I broke down. How did the dream come to this? What did I miss?

Leaning into the house, resting my forehead on the sage colored brick I sobbed and wondered what to do next. Be thankful is what came. I started saying thanks for what I have and for where I am and for my feelings. Soon a car pulled up....a friend....Giffi showed up with the brightest smile. She and her partner helped me finish getting things set up. She smiled again and said more are coming. Then two other friends Kat & Tammy showed up. More bright smiles. We laughed & they adjusted my pricing. A few people came and brought and/ or bought things.

Though the dollar goal was not met I feel happy. I was reminded that there are so many ways to feel abundant besides through monetary means. These 3 women are 3 of the women who first opened their hearts to me when I moved to Utah 8 years ago. I haven't seen them in almost as many years. What brought them TODAY? Perfect.

I wanted a song to express how I feel and LEAN ON ME came to mind. Bill Withers would have been fine...but Kirk Franklin popped up in the search. When I heard the song I cried.....my brother liked gospel and I heard this song last week when I made my last batch of ice cream. It fit then and fits today. I've posted the video on my facebook page: facebook.com/sproutandrhythm

I am wondering now how things will work out?